Of course I’d rather get hit with a 2L instead of a 3L

It’s like a whole other litre of pain!

Good Freaking God June 23, 2009

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I’ve braved the youtube-verse to see whats going in Iran at the moment as work has sort of sucked up my news time in prep for my last/inventory day next week.

Just god damn.  Thats all I have to say.  Just god damn.  Its insanity thats all I have to say.  The government has gone beyond the edge and the crackdown has been nothing less than vicious and bloody.  The scenes you can see on youtube are just freaking unbelievable.

Bless those people and bless those that have lost loved ones in the struggle.  Power to the people of Iran and let this struggle end in their victory.

 

Yay for A/C! June 22, 2009

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The air conditioner works pretty well on this very tiny apartment.  It feels great since its been so muggy lately.

Still no change on the bridge.  This is beyond nuts at this point.  Watching Saint Ange on instant watch.

I watched Perhaps Love today, because I adore Takeshi Kaneshiro.  It was interesting, I got lost a couple of times, probably because I was only half watching most of the movie.  It wasn’t bad, interesting for a musical, but I’m not sure I would watch it a second time.  The next movie on the list is Phantom of the Opera with Robert Englund, can’t wait to watch that one, heard it was good.

I just filled out two more applications tha I’ll be dropping off tomorrow.  I need to finish up my grad application so I can have that sent out friday.  Then I need to pay my application fee some how, I’m not sure how to do that.  Whatever, I could a little whiles to pay it.  $76 dollars, just to possibly get rejected.  Application fees are ridiculous, you really gotta pick your schools or else you’ll be paying a crapload.

My supervisor is out on medical leave for the time being, its a small blessing.  I’m going to make baklava for my final day there, which is inventory day, so I’ll make the day before since I go in at 3AM.

 

The million dollar question. June 17, 2009

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So why is it when I protest, a Mohawk person, its domestic terrorism, but when white a person protests and interrupts the flow of traffic its just an expression of their basic human rights?

So by that logic, people find us subhuman and do not qualify to express basic human rights.

Wonderful, thank you again Canadian people, you have shown this poor red skin the light.  And surprise, its white.  Or is it beige?  Eggshell perhaps?

Oh how my anger makes me sarcastic, I gotta stop reading the comments section on news articles.  Its full of dumbasses.  Mostly anyway.

So to the more serious issue at hand, my father could possibly lose his job, looming towards it actually happening than not.  As I have said before, he works for Mohawk Security, which is in tandem with the Canadian customs.  So either they close it down or they move it, its still looking like he’ll be out of a job before the year is out.  My father has put almost 20 years.  The first 12 as a spare, and then finally he was made full time.  Then where does that leave my family?  I have three younger siblings, one in high school and the other two in primary.  If the bridge closes, this area is on the fast track to nothing and its going to be even harder to find work.

Ugh, its all frustrating.  Frustrating to the point of tears.  And I want to go to grad school…..yeah…

 

So I ask myself… June 17, 2009

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I ask myself often, why is Public Safety Minister Peter Van Loan being an utterly unmitigated ass?  Really, is it all necessary to arm a handful of guys?  Does being able to give 20 guys handguns, justify for economically killing an entire region?  Well, apparently Minister Peter Van Loan thinks losing nearly 100’s of thousands of dollars  a day is justifiable, if not pushing into the millions.  Well Pete, because you hardly deserve any respect at this point, if you do decide to shut down this port, there goes all that money they’ve gathered for the new Cornwall Bridge, the $77 million dollars the US spent on their new structure, and be prepared to have the entire Cornwall area and the county its in, as well as the US town of Massena all up in your ass demanding your resignation.  Because in doing so you will be submitting these areas and the outlying communities that rely on them to death.  You Pete, are a murderer, congratulations.

And I would also like to give a shout out to Minister Chuck Strahl, who I shall be calling Chucky for his complete lack of work ethic.  Now Chucky is our good ol minister of Indian Affairs in Canada, who has been “unavailable” the entire time this bridge has been closed down and CBSA has been a bunch of douche bags.  I would imagine that this involving a First Nations community this would fall into his jurisdiction and job description, but darn it if we can’t find him.  I would like to ask Pete, the next time he’s strolling the halls refusing to talk to anybody, to keep an eye out for little Chucky hiding out in the shadows of parliament and tell his ass to get back to work.  But that would be difficult since Pete refuses to talk to anybody.

Now this whole CBSA thing is not limited to this port, there have been complaints all over at essentially all the ports of entry in Canada.  Now just having these guys fax a paper does not constitute a psych examination, okay?  And these guys are a little too eager to get some guns and more than half of them are on some sort of anti-depressant or psychotic drug.  I don’t feel safe just thinking about that, and they only want to train them for 3 weeks?  The damn police train for nearly 4 times as that.

I’m tired of the whole thing, something just be done for god sakes.  People are losing their livelihood and Pete is acting like a petulant child and Harper is just sitting with his thumb up his butt hoping the liberals don’t throw our asses into another election this summer.  God help me if it does, I will freaking vote.  And oh what, I’ll vote liberal.  My father will be out of a job soon enough and where does that leave my family with the area being put on the fast track to ruin?

So Petey, stop being a complete dumbass.  Chucky get back to freaking work.  And Stevie, you better do something about this because Ignatieff has already spoke with us at least once, and I hope they no-confidence vote your ass.

 

Ugh once more. June 8, 2009

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I’ve been sick today, started coming down with it yesterday.  I went in to work for an hour.  I feel like I’m loosing the hearing in my right ear.  I’m not sure if its blockage and leading to an ear infection or actual hearing loss.  I think its just blockage because I have times where I can hear just fine out of it.  Its like I really need to pop my ears.

So I hate my job.  I really hate my job.  I’m hoping once I get my referrals, that I can find out whether I get into grad school by the end of the summer.  I need to find another job.  I’ll work anything else besides this crap.  Maybe I’ll take swing by FYE and see if that job at FYE is part-time or full-time.  We shall see.  First things first is helping dusitn find a full-tme job before I think about trying to land something else.

The bridge is still closed off, which sucks.  I have a doctor’s appointment in two weeks and I’ll need a refill for my prescription then.  So I might not have an appointment yet again and I’ll probably have to get my refill in St. Regis.

Read the translation for Gackt’s new song Koakuma Heaven, and its hilarious.  Written from the point of view of what is essentially a prostitute and the way the translation can be done, very naughty.  It makes it even more hilarious that he performs it with the Ageha style girls, which apparently he finds very annoying and is sort of mocking with the song as well.

What I would give to be able to open my own bakery/cafe/sweet shop.  I would do damn near anything.  I know a space I wouldn’t mind, but its all a matter of money, though probably more like credit and my lack of credit history.  I really think we need to take the plunge, but thats just me.

Man, my stomach has been wonky for the last week and a half, it sucks.

 

Anime North 2009 May 28, 2009

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So its almost a week after Anime North, and it freakin rocked which made the rest of this week totally suck more ass in comparison.  Friday was mainly spent driving, 4 and 1/2 hours isn’t fun for anybody but it was such a relief when we made it to the hotel.  Though the Crowne Plaza wasn’t too much of a walk, we are definitely booking the doubletree for next year since its right across the street from the convention centre and the panels are in the hotel.

Most of the money spent this year went to prints.  Since I have a decent job and we weren’t strapped for cash like last time, I was like “Oh, i’ll buy that one, and that one, and I’ll take three of those.”  But we still only spent like under $300, which I think is pretty damn good.  All of my pictures are on my facebook page, i’m just too lazy to upload them up onto here.

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=46603123&ref=profile#/album.php?aid=2046286&id=46603123

Feel free to peruse.

There’s only so much I can say, the con was awesome and beyond fund and the break from work we desperately needed.  Next year we are so going to the next level and cosplaying it up :)

 

Okay…. May 13, 2009

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So facebook disabled my account because I was using a fake name according to them.  Well I didn’t my name sounded so out of place that you could mistake it for being fake.  Way to go facebook.  I remember reading something on Indian Country, apparently I won’t be the first or the last native american this has happened to.  Way to go us and our fairly unique looking names and apparently they just can’t be real names.

 

I’m so disappointed May 8, 2009

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Canada, you do it so rarely but right now, you disgust me.  First and foremost I am a Mohawk, tried and true.  But I’m also Canadian, I’m fairly proud to be Canadian, I will gladly admit to being Canadian, but not on days like today.  On days like today, Canada and a surprisinly large chunk of neighboring Canadian communities, I am ashamed and disgusted with you.  I’ve come to expect more from Canada, even though they refuse to sign an agreement established by the UN to reconginze indigenous communities human and sovereign rights ( Like the U.S, Austrailia, Argentina, etc, all countries that have large marginalized indigenous populations, shocker).

Right now, my people are protesting the arming of CBSA officers at the customs building that sits on our land before you enter Cornwall, Ontario.  And I agree with it since its no secret what a lot of these customs officers think of us.  Its well documented some of the discrimination we go through, the bullshit they try to pull, the fact they try to provoke people to act out, the more serious offenses have been brought before a human rights board in Canada.  With such people in the position they are already in to abuse their position, why would we want them armed?  So when they feel like we’re not being “good indians” they can pull a gun us?  I think not.

But what sickens me is the response of the communities neighboring us.  How dare you.  You smile at us, you take our money, you drive to our land to buy cheap gas, cheap cigarettes, crappy little gift shop items.  You spend money at our Casino’s and laugh and have a good time, and joke with us.  But the minute we step up for ourselves, when something happens that we would feel harms our community that’s when the vitriol leaks out.  It starts out small at first and then builds.  “Oh, indians protesting again, government not doing a damn thing”, slowly going on to more blatantly racist thoughts.  How dare you malign an entire commnunity for a select few that break the law.  My parents are hard working honest people, my grandparents were honest, hard working people, my Tota Frank fought in WWII because he felt compelled, he wasn’t drafted.  My Grandpa Angus was a pilot in the Airforce, then he remained in the Reserve and a firefighter.  All of my friends and their parents are hard working, honest people.    Don’t you dare insult them by lumping them in with a few people that decide to run a bad life.

When you drive through the Canadian Customs, all those cameras are not turned at the vehicles, they are turned on the CBSA officers themselves.  Over the years there have been several very large drug busts involving CBSA officers, and WHITE ACCOMPLISES, running drugs and taking bribes.  One even involving a head official that would  call their accomplises and tell them which lane to drive through.  Now CBSA officers are not allowed to carry their cellphones while on duty.  I would rather these men not be armed.

Also arming the CBSA officers does include a decent number of individuals that work there as Mohawk Security.  These men take the same risks and endanger their lives in the same way as CBSA officers.  They are your ground security, why are they not armed?    If Mohawk security gets nothing, CBSA gets nothing.  My father is Mohawk Security, there have been days where he’s faced some very serious situations, one in particular involving a man and a gun, and all that he has is a baton, even if they still have them.  I’m not even sure if they still give Mohawk Security bullet proof vests anymore.  I don’t think so.

But what disgusts me and just makes me sad that the world has only moved on so far, the attitudes of the  communities that border us.  When these situations come up all the racist things come out.  I like to think its not everybody, its only a small select group of people that feel this way, but it seems each time something happens to prove me wrong.  Most recently Caledonia, the largest being the Oka crisis and the response by the town of Oka and the Canadian Army and the border town of Chatteguay.  Racial slurs not just by people but elected officials, people burning native american effigies.  That there is still so much racism everywhere, just makes you wonder if its really worth trying anymore.  One can only hear such poison so much in your life before it makes you hate just as much.  I’ve heard such things since I was a kid and it probably won’t end anytime soon.  Well, I hope it makes you happy that I hate you just as much.

So no, I do not want CBSA officers armed.  I think its a horrible god-damned idea thats just going to create serious violent situations when there hasn’t been anything serious.  And you people and you’re two faced, or only faced, talk, running your mouth when any sort of oppurtunity arrives, I hope your kids/grandkids/nephews/nieces/ neighbors children/whatever avoid the drugs being peddled by their white neighbors.  I heard some white kids from St. Lawrence Univeristy(an Invy leaguer)  were busted for selling pot and another for cocaine.   Damn shame these rich/middle class kids are hooking your communities up with drugs.  Damn shame another frat from Clarkson and SUNY Potsdam is getting closed down from not following simple rules of not getting minors drug and avoiding having them fall out of windows, getting sexually assulted or better yet, dead.  Damn shame its all these white kids, eh?  If only they could be a minority, eh?

So just smile nicely the next time you come to the rez, whether it be for gas, food, the casino, whatever.  Smile real big, be polite, and don’t forget to tip, you assholes.

 

I am tired May 3, 2009

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Sleepy at 10 PM, age has caught up with me, lol.

I think I need to schedule an eye exam, my vision with my glasses on doesn’t seem so clear for distance anymore.  Fun, fun, fun.  That’s blissfully dull.

I should have my own computer at work soon enough.  Weldon will be getting a new computer and I’ll be getting his laptop and I’m not sure if I’ll be moving with Weldon and Liz to the new office/coat room or if I’ll be placed into my own little closet to do my inventory stuff.  This job is aggravating my mirgaines, its freaking  shitty.  I can’t do this job together, I need relative quiet and some natural lighting.  Flourescents will be the death of me.  I would love to be sent to the 8 wide, its out back seperate from the Casino, its quiet, there’s windows, I only need to go around and grab the sheets and unlock the back room.  But whatev, I’ll work this job for as long as I can bare it.

I’m so tired, I think I’m just going to kick back and get ready for bed.

Three weeks left until we go to Anime North!! Ace!

 

Inventory day is dangerous April 30, 2009

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Not that putting in numbers is dangerous but since everyone is there at 4 AM counting and a few of us remain until noon, personalities run a little wonky.  Its amusing, yet troubling at the same time.

picture-013My first attempt at making onigiri and my first time working with short grain rice.  I’d say not bad overall.  They tasted good so I don’t really care.

I’m tired and I want a haircut.  I don’t have much else to say.

Roughly three more weeks until anime north!!